Not really sure why, but at the current moment, I am so happy to be single. It's just a lovely feeling of freedom and strength. Just little old me and big timeless God, working together to try to make my life worth something. He gives me a whack every now and then to keep me in line too. And it's quite dandy.
I realized something about myself the other day by the way. I think it was a really important realization too. I love being free. Sounds strange, and yet, I do. I think that's my biggest preoccupation in my thinking and the way I act. I hate being defined, I hate being caged, I hate being labelled, I hate being cooped up inside, I hate being controlled, I hate being told what I can and cannot do. I think that's why I sing and dance at random times in the day, and perhaps why I can care less when people laugh at my regularly embarassing moments or chaotic actions. I would never want to live my life defining myself in the rules of society.
God tells me what to do - and that's actually freeing for me! Sounds ironic, but no, it isn't. He loves me more than I could ever possibly imagine, and that's enough for me to just... trust Him. He's a pretty great guy. Perfect really. :) I'm free from sin in Him, I'm free from the sadness and depression of this world, and filled up with the incredible hope and joy He's given me. and that's enough to make me jump up and down and be freeeeee! Yay!
On a random note, aren't sparrows just the loveliest of birds? There the jewels of nature in my eyes.